Thank you Bethenney!!!!

“A Place of Yes” by Bethenney Frankel has to be one of the best sources of motivation  I’ve ever had and I’m not even through the first chapter. Bethenney gives it to you straight and with her swift kick in the rear with her matter of fact way of speaking it jump started with me not settling with my life as it is at the present time.

 I have always wanted to get a degree in Art and Sciences with my focus on Psychology ever since I was in junior high but never thought it was possible. At that time I wanted to be just like Marlena from Days of our Lives but without the drama of Stefano lurking in the corners but when I would tell my parents about my aspiration on becoming a therapist I just heard snickers and comments such as “you can’t do that or you’re not smart enough”…..after hearing the laughter of my suggestion long enough I just reverted my desire to be the one my friends would go to  regarding their problems.

Now here I am 37 sitting in a cubicle from 8-5 not feeling satisfied with where my life is going. Do I want to be in the same seat 20 years from now typing on the same keyboard, looking at the same screen…sitting in the same chair? No I do not. I see others here that have been content doing just that and that’s what is good for them and even though my job is good for me “right now” it won’t be years to come…. I want to be SOMEONE in this company and most importantly I want to be SOMEONE to ME.

So I registered for college yesterday and will be meeting with an adviser this afternoon to work towards my degree and I’m excited for my future. I told the Mister what I was planning on doing and he just didn’t understand why I wanted to go to school and get a degree in this field. He stated that I could go far in my department without a degree and one day be in my bosses position. I laughed ……I seriously don’t want her position plus I already have a feeling who is taking on that spot when she leaves and who that persons right hand man (well woman) is going to be. Even so I’m a newbie to these veterans with 10 plus years behind them in this department. None the less I didn’t feel the support from the Mister but it doesn’t matter I am in the right mind set to get it done. Yes I know the road ahead will be long and challenging but I need to do this for me and no one else!! 

It's all about being in that place of YES!!!

What I'm reading

Since I’ve been accompanying the Mister the last couple days here at the hospital I’ve been reading “Something Borrowed” by Emily Griffin. I’ve seen this book on the shelves at Barnes and Nobles, Target and Walmart….I’ve even picked it up and read the back a couple of times but for some reason just always put it back, but after seeing the trailer the other night I decided it was time to buy the book because it’s going to be a “must see” once it comes out. 

As tired as I am and anxiously awaiting to lay down on that "ohh so comfy " cot in the corner I still find myself reaching for the book to read just a little bit more. In ways I can relate to the main character Rachel, who is just entering her thirties and is faced with the fact that her life isn’t like she had planned it out to be when she was little……she’s not married with children in tow, in actuality she’s not even close.  Although, for myself I had children when I turned 30......I was divorced for ten plus years and not close to finding THE ONE. So in a way I can relate to Rachel with her timeline crashing down right before her eyes and coming to the reality that.......life can't be based on timelines. 

So I'm going to stop blogging for the night and continue reading.