I have come to a difficult decision….I think I am going to
hang up my blogging shoes for awhile so I can just focus on a few things. I
feel that some of my blogs could be classified as Class A Debbie Downers and
that’s not why I choose to blog.
I have a lot on my plate……..stressing about the move,
wondering if I am going to have enough money to make it work, making sure the
kids are on track with their classes, making sure I make time to complete my
assignments, trying to deal with the realization of loosing the money I put
into a car that I have to unfortunately give back because of the current
situation. The frustrations pertaining to my current situation/marriage and
most importantly my faith because even though I know God has a plan and we have
to put our lives in his hands……………………..this is what I did 2 ½ years ago, but
did I really put it in Gods hands? Honestly, I haven’t gone to church since
this all happened…………..i’ve listened to my Pastors sermons online but that’s
just not the same as going, because I’m not really fully paying attention. I
haven’t closed myself off ….that’s not what I’m saying…….I just have some
personal, deep rooted issues that I need to work out.
Certain things I feel aren’t fair..I flipping work my ass
off and have through out my whole life
and certain people can just slide by as like nothing has happened, can lose a
job but yet money comes to them, can come back and live in a house like nothing
has happened………………..
Anyways……..until my life is a little bit more together and
less stressed…….i’m going to take a little break……lets see how things go after
the move which is in 2 weeks.
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